Long time no write

So I lost touch with writing for so many reasons and have been thinking alot about writing again, more for me than anyone else. So here I am. To ease myself back in I would like to share a poem that I recently wrote. I've been having many bad days lately and rather than continue to keep my emotions and frustrations inside where they were eating away at my joy I chose to write and get it out.

I hope this helps others, if not I know it helped me.



 Ghost

I feel like a ghost

Not quite living yet not quite dead

A shell of the person I used to be

A shell of the person that can never completely return

On my best days you get an idea of the person I used to be even though

I’m not whole

On my average days you may get a glimpse, you may be touched, but you

May not see me

On my bad days, you may not even know I am there

I am a ghost

I wish to return to the living

Some days I may even wish to join the

Dead

I mourn

I mourn who I know I am that I cannot always show

I mourn for the life I know I deserve

I mourn for the many more lives I could have touched, instead to choose between helping a few and not living for myself

Or

Try to live for myself but not be true at all

I am a ghost for I refuse to give up

I refuse to be a living corpse

My spirit refuses to let my death go unnoticed

My spirit seeks a path back to the

Living

My spirit seeks peace without being merely a shell

My soul seeks to live for me and not just for others

My soul seeks to live for immortality

For the long lasting effects I will have on others

For the positive energy I will pass on

So I will fight

The ghost that I am will not go unnoticed

The ghost that I am will be more whole than many of the living

The ghost that I am will know more about life and how to appreciate it than many of the living

Yes I will continue to fight

Yes I will continue to seek a path to life

I will not give up